I’ve never had a course of tablets without reading the information leaflet in it which used to happen in the past.

Yes.

You know you would just get…

I was going to say do you take much notice of the information that’s in the box?

I you read it every time you which is because I’ve read it now about 40 times because I’ve had, you know, I always get it out and oh yes no I haven’t had that and I haven’t had that. But what’s a good thing about leaflets of course they don’t just give you the contraindications or the side effects, they go… less than one in a 100 will get this, you know, it’s actually quite, the definition’s quite good because it’s quite detailed and I’ve noticed it’s changed as well.

What changes have you noticed?

Well just I think kind of I can’t, see now I’ve said it I can’t think of one but I think it was more kind of one in a 100 will experience this and there was the graph thing that had kind of gone from one in a 1000 to one in a 100 or something. So obviously that’s the research that the drug company’s do into, you know, the more information they get from what people are reporting I would imagine.

What they didn’t tell me, and I found out by reading the kind of, you know, patient note information leaflets that you get, was that it makes you sugar crave in a really, really big way . So I didn’t get on very well with that drug because I had a history, well have a history of eating problems so giving a drug that makes you sugar crave to someone who has eating issues was probably not the best idea in the world.

I’ve read, you get your patient information leaflet and you do read oh you shouldn’t mix it with these medications’ and certainly there have been some things that I’ve been on and I can’t remember which ones, that I’ve read them and I’ve thought well I’m also on that and that says I shouldn’t be on both at the same time and you kind of think well someone should be telling me that I shouldn’t be finding that out by myself but generally they don’t tell you anything.

I was a little bit worried because you know obviously I am fiercely independent and, you know, I have heard people have said when they’ve taken antidepressants that they go all fluffy and they don’t really know what they’re saying and what they’re doing and I didn’t really want to be like that and obviously with being on my own I didn’t want to put myself into any situations where, you know, I wasn’t in control of myself or I could fall over or I could injure myself because of the medication. So to be honest when I did get my first prescription I read the leaflet inside, front and back, to make sure I knew exactly what could happen to me in the course of taking them.

Did that reassure you, how did that, how did the information seem?

There were certain bits of it that I thought you know a lot of the symptoms were things that I, a lot of the side effects of the medication were things that I was already suffering with symptoms of the depression.

Which sort of things were they?

Well sickness and dizziness and palpitations and things like that.

What did you think then when you read that?

I was a little bit concerned that I didn’t want any of my symptoms to get worse but then the doctor explained that, you know, it would calm a lot of things down and to be honest that’s what has happened.

I do ask as well because of the frightening leaflet, you know, I’ve had it where I’ve come home with something and then you read, you read the leaflet and then I haven’t taken them because it sounds so scary.

Right, what kind of things would it say that would scare you?

Well it seems to repeat the symptoms of what you’re suffering from already……you may feel suicidal’ or you think oh my God, you know.

It’s meant to stop me from feeling….that?

Yes and I mean I again it’s something I try not do because, but I’m not always strong willed and I because I it’s almost like I, I sometimes think I kind of use it because then I can justify my lack of interest in taking it, wow look at all these contraindications’

Can’t take that.

Yes so but pretend you know I’m quite good at, you know, stocking up my reasons why I can’t do.

What kind of information would it have been helpful for you to have had right from the start?

Okay. What I had was literally just this tiny metal tube, the kind of information sheet inside of the box the medication came from the from the Boots chemist. And it just simply had a side effects’ with a huge list, one huge long paragraph of short type. It wasn’t even very good for me because I’m partially sighted so I couldn’t, you know, read it properly. That’s all I had.

What I would want was a list with common, can happen, rarely, side effects, how to treat it, and with the treatment being prescribed along with the medication. That is what I would want.

So some idea that those side effects could be managed in some way?

Yes.

By whatever means.

But that’s not what I got. So you know, some way of treating the horrible taste I had in my mouth or some way of dealing with the feeling of always kind of wanting to be sick or just sweating, but they would never , they would, you know, it wasn’t like that. It was just a list of side effects. So that’s what I would have wanted.

Yes it said it wasn’t recommended to drink with antidepressants and that’s kind of the idea that people get anyway I can’t now remember whether the GP, the initial GP several years ago actually told me that I shouldn’t drink. us certainly I didn’t and then when I went back on this time I thought oh no I’m not going to be able to drink and that’s going to seem odd and then people will find out because they’ll want to know why I’m not drinking. And I stuck it out for a few months and then I just happened to go to the GP about something else and I think they asked me how much I drank and I said well I don’t because I’m on citalopram and she said What, who told you that?’ and I said but it says in the little leaflet you’re not allowed to it’s a really bad,’ It tells you in all the leaflets it doesn’t mean anyone takes any notice and I was like Oh alright then fair enough.

I don’t pay too much attention to those given my job anyway I tend to look up in the medical books to what they are and what the side effects are and what yellow cards are on them.

It’s the side effects that they don’t tell you about, the leaflets are usually quite good in fact the leaflets sometimes have things on them that the books the doctors look at don’t which is something me and my GP have kind of discussed with the duloxetine because there was like one side effect listed on there is not what is listed in the book.

What did the doctor say about that?

Well it’s not reported or something some, it’s on the leaflet comes with the drug.

You mentioned yellow card what, tell me what you know about that.

The yellow card scheme is where patients can report side effects whether they’re listed or not they can report them and say that they’ve taken that medication and that they’ve, it’s had this effect on them and it means they can keep a tab on what side effects are going on and so how likely you are to get that side effect.