I have got a girlfriend here. I told her my situation. Showed her my letter of diagnosisand then she said ah, theres nothing I can doyou have to use the condoms. So theres no problem for me, cos she accepted, I didn’t force her to have intercourse without letting her know, pluscondom was actuallyas I said earlier, I just feel it’s better to tell someone.

If we go separate wayswe go separate ways. I cannot force her cos what I have is not what she hasAs I say, that she accepted, and becauseis using a condom, she accepted cos she just feel no, what’s the purpose of disclosing my status when we are using condoms?

And normally I use about three condoms. I put on three condoms. I just put them for the, just for the sake of safety, so thatI’m just showing that I just care, I don’t want to infect herJust want her to live as long asmaybe if she doesn’t have the disease she may live longernbsp;

She was my lover from, since, I mean back home from when we hadduring our school days. So were going out together.

* Footnote experts believe that using more than one condom could increase the chances of condoms breaking.

I don’t normally get worried, otherwise I just feel maybe if I become so worried I can die earlierleaving my kids, not anyone who can support them. So I just feel like I am just like anyone who is negative, yeahI am saying I am, I just feel like I am just like someone who is HIV negativeyeah, who is OK, who is not HIV positive, just feel like that.

Unlessthat’s why you see, I always try to keep my status private, in privacy, because once the other person hear about it peoplesome of them, they, normally they don’t want to associate with the people like that. But they’ve never read or hear about anything concerning people who are HIV positive.

Yeah, that disease, if you have actually attended everything, the disease is not spread by, like sharingcups, toilet seats, eating together on the same plate, no. That’s notyou cannot get that disease. So there are certain people who just don’t know. So for you not to let know about your status, for you to live with them quite normally, don’t have to tell them. So we don’t have any problems. You can live longwon’t be thinking about anything.

Sometimes I am not interested in sex cosI sometimes feel weaker, yeah. Sometimes I just feel, I don’t knowmaybe I’m just wasting her time because I just don’t feel like enjoying it like the other days, the early days when I got involved, or the days when I was married.

It’s now very different. It’s just something that I willjust trying to make myselftry to enjoy or toto just fulfil the desire, but that sex is no longer enjoyable.

Cos once, one, the person I am sleeping with, she always try to look whether the condom is, the condoms are OK. You see, so something likeif she cannot just tell you that she does not trust you, but you can see from the reaction. So obviously my reaction also, I have a feeling that no, no, I could have this thing more enjoyable, but I can’t, just because of the status I have.

But anywayI always have different feelings. Anyway, as long as I am still alive, as long as I am having my treatment, I can live longer.