Has your experience with your daughter changed your perception of the condition, compared to what you knew about it at that point?

Well, yes. Because right from being a teenager, I’ve always been educated about these kind of things, and I lost a very good relationship just because the chap was, had sickle cell. I didn’t want to know him, as soon as I realised that he had sickle cell. And when I had my daughter and she turned out to be sickle cell, it changed my perspective entirely, and I had to write letters, apologising, looking for phone numbers to communicate with this guy, to really really talk to him, because I now saw the condition in a different way.

When you split up from him was that partly because you were thinking, ‘I wouldn’t want to have children with someone with…?

Sickle cell.

Right.

Yes.

Would you feel any differently about that now?

I will. I will, definitely. [pause] Because as much as possible I don’t shy away from the fact that my daughter has sickle cell. Anybody that works with her, any close friends I have, they need to know that my daughter has sickle cell, in order to know how to deal with it. Well, my, one of my friends made a statement and I broke up with that friend just because of that.

What did she say?

Well, we were just making jokes. She had boys, and one of her boys is very fond of my daughter from when she was a baby, so we just make jokes like, she makes the joke that, ‘What are you trying to do? Oh, you’re [daughter’s] boyfriend now, since you look after her so much, who knows?’ And she – no, somebody said that. And shes going on like, ‘Never, that my daughter – my son would never marry her, because. And that was it. And that was it. I mean, how insensitive can somebody you called your friend be? And that was it, that was the end of the friendship up until now. So ‘

English Translation, video and audio clips read by an actor in Mirpuri.

My message is just that, whoever they explain to, I mean if they have to explain to somebody, that it’s nothing to have a miscarriage [termination] within eleven weeks. Rather than every day There was a child [called name], you may have heard about him, Mashallah, he was nineteen years old. Now, I mean, Allah has written life and death. Death doesn’t forget you. What happened with him was that he was going for a blood transfusion, and his mother said, ‘Go for blood’ – hed grown up now and he used to get it himself – and his mother said, ‘Go get a blood transfusion’ and he said, ‘Mummy, it’s my birthday this week, I’m not going, I mean for (a few unclear words), next week.

He went for a check next week, and parked his car outside the [hospital] and his blood was a lot lower, much lower, because he needed blood transfusions after four weeks, and it was five weeks. Then he shut his car door. When he got out, he felt dizzy and fell there. They took him in and he died. Okay, that’s how much life he had, but his mother won’t forget him. It will never leave his mother’s head that ‘My child was late by one week. Rather than this stress from thinking, it is better, theres nothing [wrong] with having a miscarriage [termination] within eleven weeks. It’s nothing.

Footnote The mother in this interview used the English word ‘miscarriage. However, it was clear from the interview that she was using this term to mean an early surgical termination. She distinguished between this and termination later in pregnancy by induced labour, which would not have been acceptable to her.

Video and audio clips read by actors.

I mean, what was it like growing up with a sister with thalassaemia? How did it affect family life?

Man’Oh, in every respect, in every respect it was what really dictated most of everything. And we were the first four – well, living at that time there were three brothers. And when she was born – my parents had two younger brothers, who were definitely affected by thalassaemia, who died when they were just about two. An earlier brother of mine died when he was – of polio. And that was the third brother. He died when he was just over a year of polio, so something unrelated. And then there were two brothers that were affected by thalassaemia and died when they were just a couple of years old. And then my sister, she was the first female in the family, and she was obviously affected by thalassaemia.

I remember I was thirteen, fourteen at the timeAt the time these cases were starting to be treated somehow, because before, just like my younger brothers, they basically died. They tried to give them blood transfusion at the end, but there was nothing really that they could do. And she started to have blood transfusions when she was not even four years, three years and a half, until she died nine days short of her thirty-first birthday.

And everything – I mean, it’s affected all of us and all the family, despite she had the most wonderful and fulfilling life, because she worked as a social assistant and social worker and so on. But what it really meant, apart from us, was for her. The sufferings, the constriction, are something that unless you live them – and when you’re living them you also live the experience of the ones that are in the same boat. And there were many. And their problems and their concerns and worries, they were, how shall I say, in a way shared in common. Because it was obviously very easy to relate to them. When you live it day-by-day, week-by-week, month-by-month, year-by-year, you know, it’s something that sort of bonded you also. And it’s relentless. It’s not something that you forget for a day. Not even for a moment, every, every single moment of the day, always, with all the things that they have to do to try to have a reasonable good quality of life, if you can say it.

My sister, she probably only lived to thirty, thirty-one years, but she had such a fulfilling life, that maybe if I should live for a hundred years I wouldn’t achieve. But I’ll never forget, I’ll never forget the sufferings that she went through and what that meant, to her as well. I mean I would have given my life for her, just for one day, to be able to wake up and say, ‘I don’t have anything. Just for one day.