We came back, and when you’re actually faced with actually having to do it, and actually think about it, it’s not as clear-cut as that.

So we discussed it for a week and I certainly wasn’t sure to start with, certainly I wasn’t certain about what I wanted to do because I was still very unclear about the final prognosis and, actually how likely we were to have a severely disabled child. Because they weren’t able to actually say, ‘We can categorically tell you that this will be the outcome of the pregnancy if you continue it – that the baby will be blind, the baby will be deaf, the baby will…. They were unable to give any sort of idea as to the severity, which made it very difficult, actually.

We weren’t making a decision based upon anything other than, This is what we think will happen. This is what is likely happen So I found that quite difficult and kept thinking, ‘Well maybe it will be okay – maybe things won’t be so bad.

We did look at a, on the internet at, for a lot of information, specifically the development of babies’ lungs, and how they are affected with lack of amniotic fluid. And it did actually become quite apparent that there would be no further development of the baby’s lungs, and if I went back to when I think the amniotic fluid may have leaked, the baby’s lungs would have been between 19 and 20 weeks, and that’s very immature lungs to expect to be able to sustain life.