It was it was a new challenge, in that sense, go through it, move on with it. It actually did make me think though, to go and research, you know, to find out more about it. That’s what I wanted to know. I wanted to educate myself on the subject to an extent. So just for personal gain I suppose.

And how did you go about that?

Well, again, the doctor, the GP was very good. He printed off a number of texts that just give the basics, so I just sat and read through them, and I’ve actually just continued, you know, the odd afternoon, just maybe ten or fifteen minutes, quick search on the internet to see if there was anything.

I haven’t sat reading intensively about it. I’ll just go fifteen minutes just a wee nosey or things like that.

Yeah. Okay and what kind of websites do you look up when you do that?

I generally, just go through the search engine and just to find the search whatever, whatever key words, whatever jumps out, you know, like, Oh, that could be interesting and. Just.

Is it medical information or patients’ experiences?

It’s actually, a mixture of both. At the start, it was medical information. I wanted to know why, you know, what actually, what’s going on to make my breathing change all of a sudden.

And then I was on some, one or two experiences, just trying to find, you know, just as a bit of reassurance just, you know, that you know things will continue on a good line.

Living in an asthma household, I’ve seen the amount of medication my mum takes every day and I believe her body is dependent on it and shes been like this for say for the past number of years wheres shes been, she needs her medication and I’m always sitting there, even as a kid, looking at her and I’m just like, I am not going to end up like that. I am not going to become so dependent on. You know, I know people who go and take painkillers every day, every single day they’d be away taking painkillers and I actually, think to myself, Do do they really need them or is that a force of habit? Because that’s, you know, is their mind telling them Oh shit, it’s two o’clock. Wherere your painkillers? You know, [laughs] and I thought sometimes I think about it and it baffles me.

Where do you think this fear of being dependent on something has come from?

Just watching the way it affected my mum’s lifestyle I suppose, and other lifestyles. You know, I’ve aunties, I’ve uncles, once it’s something you become aware of you can see it quite regularly in peoples lifestyles from people needing medication to people needing coffee and a cigarette every morning when they get out of bed. I don’t know how much their body actually needs it or if it’s their mind telling them they need it.

Did you find the GP helpful?

Very helpful indeed, yeah. He hes actually an asthma sufferer himself.

And he explained hes got two kids and they’re the same, two young fellas, but hes also reassuring at the same time, in that I am now twenty five and himself was only diagnosed when he was twenty five and again, an active man, keeps himself fit and he just explained how it hasn’t hampered his life, hes had it for, I don’t know, I’m guessing, thirty years, going by his age and he hasn’t let it affect his life. You know, he takes it in the morning. He forgets about it and he gets on with it.

He stays fit and healthy; it’s again, positive mindset.

I was out doing a bit of running in the evenings and after about three or four months my fitness wasn’t improving and I was still very out of breath and so I went to a doctor and, as a result, he diagnosed me with the early stages of asthma. The typical tell tale signs were, as I say, short of breath in the afternoons, even in the evenings where I wasn’t exercising and so that was my main concern. I wasn’t doing anything and was finding myself out of breath from just sitting down after a day’s work and that was worrying me because I’m still only twenty five. So…

Okay and when you went to the doctor, what actually happened?

I just went in and told him my concerns. I done a simple, few simple breath tests. He checked my lungs with a stethoscope.

And he gave me a prescription for two inhalers to take over the course of the next four weeks and then I have to check in with him, actually, next week to up-date my progress and if hes happy that it is asthma I do have well take the next step and if not, well might have to be referred onto somebody else. But so far, I’m happy. I think the inhalers have made a slight improvement.

Did you find the GP helpful?

Very helpful indeed, yeah. He hes actually an asthma sufferer himself.

And he explained hes got two kids and they’re the same, two young fellas, but hes also reassuring at the same time, in that I am now twenty five and himself was only diagnosed when he was twenty five and again, an active man, keeps himself fit and he just explained how it hasn’t hampered his life, hes had it for, I don’t know, I’m guessing, thirty years, going by his age and he hasn’t let it affect his life. You know, he takes it in the morning. He forgets about it and he gets on with it.

He stays fit and healthy; it’s again, positive mindset.

The typical tell tale signs were, as I say, short of breath in the afternoons, even in the evenings where I wasn’t exercising and so that was my main concern. I wasn’t doing anything and was finding myself out of breath from just sitting down after a day’s work and that was worrying me because I’m still only twenty five.

Well, to be honest, part of me wasn’t surprised because theres actually a history within the family. My mother has asthma and on my father’s side of the family I have an aunt and an uncle who have a particular lung disease. I’m not sure of the correct name. So I wasn’t particularly surprised. So half expecting it that way.

And my mum was actually always paranoid when I was a kid she would drive me to the doctor once or twice thinking, He has asthma. He has asthma. So but the doctor always turned me away.

Right and do you think, I mean what do you think led her to believe that you might have had asthma when you were a child?

I don’t know. To, I was a typical boy, out playing football until it was dark, come in clean wrecked. To me that was just playing football for four hours and it was time for bed. Mum noticed there was something wrong. I don’t know. I was just a kid.

And do you think that maybe she was right?

Then, no, I wouldn’t. As I say, I was a kid and I was giving out to her, you know, What are you taking me to the doctors for? I’m fine. That was the attitude I had. For all it, as it turns out, she probably was right. I don’t know.

How did you feel when you were told you might have asthma?

There was a say five minutes after I’d actually left the GP, after the chat with the doctor, there was five minutes before I went and collected my prescription where I was kind of depressed. You know, there was a there was a slump but then I decided, you know, This isn’t going to be a big thing and I’m going to get out. I’m going to train harder. It’s not going to affect my lifestyle. I’d listened to the story the doctor told me in terms of how his life has continued with it and I just thought, theres no reason why that can’t be me.

Since I came out of the appointment with my GP that particular day, I thought about my lifestyle over the past couple of years.

I thought, you know, How has my body changed from two or three years ago until now. You know, what have I done in that space of time that’s having such an effect on my lifestyle.

I became a regular smoker. There was about a ten month period I was smoking between about fifteen cigarettes a day in Australia. Since I’ve come home I’ve quit that out since January I haven’t smoked at all. It’s now June.

How do you feel about having to see a nurse, say, maybe every three months or twice a year, something like that, about asthma?

I wouldn’t want to do it, to be honest. At the moment, I’d go and see her, you know, as I say, early days, just diagnosed. I’d perhaps go and see her in three month’s time and I wouldn’t want to be scheduled in for another appointment. If I could go and see her the once. That would be that would be great [laughs]. You know, if I was told I had to go every three months it would it would be depressing. It would be a dampener. I’d be extremely de-motivated coming out of the appointment.

Why’s that?

Because it would feel like it’s getting a grasp on my life, you know. It would feel like it’s controlling me whenever I should be controlling it.