I said yes, cos I was willing to give anything a try so she [the nurse] said, Well can you come and see me in a days’ time? So I turned up to see her and she said she was going to, she showed me the catheter. It wasn’t one that was self-lubricated. You had to put it into the sink, so we went through the process of cleaning of hands, the process etcetera, so we were keeping infection, as much infection out as possible.

By putting it in the sink you mean lubricate it with water?

Yes with water, I mean to fill the whole container with water from a tap, that’s right. And then we got to sort of hold that up so that it was in the container for about ten or twenty seconds so it became lubricated before insertion. But as I’d not had it before, not tried it before and it was not a self-lubricating one, she said I’d got some numbing gel that I’m able to sort of insert into your penis beforehand. So yes this is a little bit messy but then I found that you could have that numbing gel first, and then insert the catheter and it’s surprisingly, the length of the catheter, most of the length, 90% of the length goes through your urethra, is that the right term? And of course it’s not until you get to the last 5, 10% that it enters your bladder and will start to drain. Then of course I was finding that, well that helped tremendously because I was able to fully drain my bladder whereas before I’d go to the toilet, and then think that I’d finished and when I got back out of the toilet, walking back I’d find that I wanted to go again.

Firstly the lady who was in charge of the continence clinic at one of the hospitals that I looked after, with fire training, she was very, very good. She started me on the road of catheterisation. She started me on saying Look this is what I’d do for my job so, she says, Don’t feel embarrassed, she says, You’re no different to anybody else. And she says, Just accept it for what it is. And she says, Once you’ve accepted it in your mind then I think that’s the way to move on. You know you accept it for what it does for you, for how it improves your life, okay and it does improve your life.

So eventually after a series of tests I was diagnosed with MS. And of course I was confused about that, because there weren’t any publications at that time. I was able to continue working, managed to carry on working for the next ten years, but I had to finish [work] because I couldn’t stand for long periods of time. And towards the time when I had to finish work I started to need to go the toilet more frequently and especially as I was driving around the county; I’d have to think, Well where is a toilet? And how am I going to get there? And can I get access to it? So yes, that worked okay, but also when I’d been to the toilet and got back out to the car I felt I wanted to go to the toilet again. And I’d go back in and I’d either not want to pass water at all, or end up having leakage before I got back to the toilet itself. So that was very embarrassing because I couldn’t really continue my job if I was going out to lecture people on fire safety, I couldn’t really stand out in front of them with my trousers with a wet patch round, and difficult to explain it to somebody so it was very frustrating at that time. So as I worked in the hospital situation I knew the lady who ran the continence service and I asked her if shed find time to see me so yes she did. And we had a talk through all of my symptoms and she said, Have you tried intermittent catheterisation?

To go back to actually inserting the catheter.

Yes.

Is it quite easy to tell when you’re in the right place?

I think it’s the feel, it’s to do with the feel. As you start to insert the catheter it’s useful to have my left hand, I’m right handed, to have my left hand as a balance, and I’m not circumcised so I need to pull the foreskin back and sort of hold that back and balance the catheter, as I’m watching the insertion of the catheter, and I find that as it’s towards the upper part it goes in far easier.

Okay.

There are occasions, I think its called spasm, when you start to insert the catheter and then when it gets to the opening of the bladder it will not penetrate. That can get very frustrating. I’ve had some episodes, but they’re probably the minority, where you end up pushing and pushing and trying and trying, and it seems the more you try, the more you push and I think I got up to about seventy was the amount of times I’d tried to insert it.

Seventy?

Seventy yes, yeah, yeah. Eventually it just sort of released and I was able to insert it and drain my bladder. But they are the exceptions to the rule, 95% of the time or 99% of the time the insertion is quite straightforward and you’re able to drain your bladder fully.

What about searching for information? Did you always have plenty of information about catheters from the beginning? Or would you have liked more?

No, no, no. I did [have information] from the beginning because I’d gone to the head of the continence service for the health authority that I was in, she was able to a) show me b) to show me the products that were available, to demonstrate how to use them; to talk about hygiene; to see how hygiene fitted in before and after and how you would dispose of the product etcetera. So shed taken me through the whole process and also shed explained to me with a leaflet as well, showing me the penis, okay, and showing me a catheter and where it goes and how it goes through the urethra and into the bladder. And she told me about that yes occasionally you could get spasm where the bladder won’t open to allow the catheter through but you know it will eventually relax and you’ll be able to pass it in.

So all that information was really helpful?

Yes very much so yeah.

This particular catheter is called SpeediCath, and it’s my size, size 12. You can get different varieties.

Can you hold it up? [He holds up the catheter and takes it out of its holder]

Yes, you can get different varieties, different sizes and mine is size 12 and that’s how you peel and separate the top before removing the catheter, that’s the catheter edge, and you can see the lubrication there. And the lubrication is easy, you don’t have to worry about lubricating and it’s clean, it’s sterile.

Do you still have to use any gel or not?

No.

No.

No that was only on the second time. The lady did it the first time, the nurse did it the first time, and I did it the second time when I was at home, to start me off on the routine. And yes I did feel a little bit faint because it was an unusual sensation shall we say, yeah.