Yeah, we decided to formula feed straight away because we just thought there is, in our head we just said we just didn’t want to impose any risk, if there doesn’t need to be it like. Again, because I’ve come from a big family, one of my sisters she breastfed her first child, but then her second child it didn’t work so well, so she couldn’t breastfeed. It just wasn’t working with her body and producing the milk and everything that was happening. It caused so much more of a headache if she had chosen to formula feed her children. So again, like I know that within the formula, still got enough for your child even though that everyone says you know, breast milk’s the best milk.

But there is loads of people that do choose formula and I’ve had other friends that have had babies and again their choice is to formula, and their children have come out fine so that made me feel a lot better that you know, do everything like.

But a lot of people say that has a lot of pros to it in terms of like the father can connect with the baby also, in terms of like we can share, we can share the shift. Like the morning shift, the night shift. Because like a lot of mums have said like when they’re breastfeeding, it’s kind of just all on them because obviously the fathers can’t do anything. In terms of like especially like night feed. If they’re not expressing it through a bottle or in a formula they’ve not got to that stage yet. It’s only the mum that can do it whereas I was able to share that load in. My baby really connected with dad, because he had to do a lot. He had to do a lot of hands on the first few months because like I said I was just recovering.

I was so terrified because, prior to when I found out I was pregnant with my baby, a month before that I had a miscarriage. So, I think my anxiety was just so highly driven at that point, so I was just thinking ‘I do not want anything that has a huge impact on why this child wouldn’t be born.’ Or have any like huge complications so, and also, I guess from the trauma of having a sibling that’s passed away due to it, I didn’t, my life experience are like. Like the first part of my life experience of finding out that I had it wasn’t so positive. I just thought all of those reasons just contributed on when I thought “Do you know what? The safest option, the less transmittable option obviously is the best option for us.”

In terms of the little one I’d hope that he won’t have to go through those sorts of experiences and like you know, the research has shown that again, consultant showed us the percentages, the stories and stuff like when get to see like on the website, the pages where it shows how successful it is. Mothers who’ve had children and they’ve had nothing. So, I just thought you know I want to be one of those mothers that can say that you did everything and the tablets and making sure I’m doing everything right on my side of the body. Working with me, I can be one of them success stories as well that it’s not, not transmitted to him. So yeah, just wanted to make sure.

Because like I said we, because we both attended that appointment. It was nice for us to both hear the same information, wasn’t me telling him. So, it be like on a biased affect. I think he just wanted the same outcome whatever is the safest option in terms of for our baby, not going to give him like slightly chance of getting it. I think that was that was one of our main, our main concern. And I think also just having the miscarriage, miscarriage happened beforehand. I think that influenced our decision hugely. Because again, we were like, we just want a very healthy baby in every shape, way, or form. How do, how do we receive, how do we get? And we knew that that was what it, the decision making are. It felt safer to do, in that sense of just got you know, especially with where our minds was at and Covid and everything, we just wanted the safest option.