I was at a church barbeque in September 1999 and we had some visitors to the barbeque whom I’d never met before. They’d come down to [place name] my town from [place name] Scotland for a day conference and I just happened to be talking to one of them and he said, ‘I hope you don’t mind me saying this but you’ve got a lump on your neck just here, and I’m a GP and if I were you I would go and see your own GP. So I thought, ‘Oh I wonder what that is?’ And so I wasn’t particularly apprehensive when I went to see my GP a few days later. Anyway she had a look at it and gave me a thorough examination. And at the end of it she said, ‘All your lymph glands are swollen and I think you must have some serious disease, possibly cancer, and I would like to admit you straight away to the hospital.

So that was 5 oclock on the Wednesday, at 6.30 on Wednesday I was admitted to hospital, which was amazingly fast, and in a bit of a state of shock.

And presumably you hadn’t noticed the lump on your neck, or if you had you thought nothing of it?

No I hadn’t noticed the lump on my neck but I had noticed that the top of my thighs seemed to be a bit swollen and I just thought it was the muscle bulging out, and I didn’t realise there were lymph glands down there so I hadn’t thought anything of it.

Yes I was on a neutropenic diet for two months after coming out of hospital. The neutropenic diet meant that tins and bottles should be wiped with a Steret [sterile swab] before opening, uncooked food should be cooked to at least 70 degrees before serving. Once packaged foods and milk had been opened they must be used within 24 hours, tap water must be boiled, bread should be toasted, cold meats and cheese bought sliced to order or bought unwrapped should be avoided. Salads and raw vegetables should be avoided. Fresh fruit that cannot be skinned should be avoided, apples should be peeled, and things like that. So that went on for two months.

And were you still vulnerable to infection when you came home?

Yes I was, and I was on the neutropenic diet for two months.

That sounds like a terrible fag, how did you and your wife cope with that?

Once you got into the routine it was alright but, yes, it was a bit of a bind.

I was off work for eleven months from September ’99 to August 2000. In August 2000 I went back to work part-time. My employer was very good and sympathetic to my illness and they allowed me to work part-time and gradually build up to full-time working over a period of, I think it was, eighteen months. Now after about eighteen months, when I’d just got back to work full-time, I got shingles. Now apparently shingles is fairly common with people who’ve been through the treatment that I have been through, but I wasn’t actually warned about this, but in fact the shingles in some ways had a greater effect than the cancer itself because I had got back to full-time working. But with the shingles I’m now, let’s have a think, nearly four years on from having shingles, I’m still suffering the after-effects of the shingles, and I’ve had to take early retirement because I couldn’t cope with a full day’s work, I really need a rest in the afternoon. But apart from that I’m quite healthy now but shingles did have a significant impact.

So tell me a bit about how the shingles made you ill, in what ways it made you ill?

The shingles itself didn’t seem very bad, I just had a rash across my stomach and I felt very tired for about six weeks or so, and I think I was off work for about two months with the shingles, and I went back part-time again but it soon became clear that I wasn’t able to resume full-time working.

You said you’re still suffering the after effects, is that tiredness or anything else specific?

Yes, yes the tiredness really.

The rash went presumably?

Yes.

I think coming to terms with cancer is one of lifes most traumatic experiences, and I just want to share a bit of how I coped personally and how the family coped. Our family are all Christians, we go to a local Baptist church and our faith was a really strong support for us at this time, and the prayers of many people in the church. I found my faith actually strengthened through having the cancer, I found myself having to really trust God as I hadn’t had to before when life was comfortable. And I found God to be faithful to me during this time and there were some verses from the bible that really help me that talk about all the things working together for good, for those who love God and that God being a rock of refuge that we can trust in. So through all of this experience I found myself very much kept in peace and there were very few times when I found myself to be unduly anxious, and I attribute this very much to the prayers of the people at church and my family and they were really a great support to me.

I was under no illusions as to what cancer was all about. My brother had been given a terminal diagnosis in February and they told him he had six months to live, and sure enough he lived six months. So I watched him die and yes, so it was, yes, quite traumatic in a way because I know the full effects of cancer. But at the same time I have a faith in God and know that Hes got a plan and purpose for my life and so it was a matter of taking each day as it comes really and trusting that things were going to work out, which they have done, so yeah.