Elizabeth

Elizabeth was a sensitive child. She was diagnosed with depression and an eating disorder when she was in high school. The worst period for her was as a teenager, but transitions into and out of schools or jobs were also hard. Her husband is tremendously supportive, and her career as a parent educator is a source of satisfaction. Depression now has a minimal impact on her life.

Elizabeth was moody, quick to cry, and often dow as a child. When she reached adolescence, these long-standing sensitivities combined with growing self-doubt and lack of good coping skills to create a big fireball of depression Her high school years also included trouble with drugs and alcohol, a problematic group of peers, and struggles with eating. Her parents, both of whom are social workers, supported her as much as possible, but her late teenage years remained difficult ones. She saw a psychiatrist, who diagnosed her with major depressive disorder and anxiety and prescribed anti-depressant medication – but that first medication did nothing or even made her in some ways feel wors.

An all-time low point for Elizabeth was when she took a bottle of pills at age 17, then immediately told her mother what she had done and went to the Emergency Department. Being in the hospital as an out-patient was frightening and horribly embarrassing but it also led to a change in medications that put Elizabeth on a steady path to health and healing. The new medication changed her life profoundly, helping calm down the nois in her head and to focus on working with a therapist, working on behavior, working on coping skills, and problem solvin. She stopped taking the medication after a few years, but continues with behavioral therapy which also helps so muc, especially with learning about herself, other people, and relationships.

In college, Elizabeth developed a close relationship with a very funny, sweet and down-eart man whom she later married. That relationship, which includes a lot of acceptance and support as well as love, has been and remains crucially important. Transitions of various kinds — for example, between school and work or between jobs — are still challenging, but for the most part her mood is good. Moving out of college and into the work world was a really positiv step because she loves what she does and knows she is good at is. Her current job is as a home visitor supporting at-risk families.

In order to maintain a steady good state, Elizabeth avoids drugs and alcohol entirely. She wants other young adults to know that it’s up to you to work at i to get better because it’s not going to just happen by a magical potion, which I have hoped for many timesut if you put in time and effort and energy and you really really address and confront who you are and what depression is all about, it’s easier Reaching out for support was crucial for her, and she hopes others can also find a way to stop feeling trapped in that really tight lonely bubbl and connect with others who can understand and help.

Elizabeth says her husband coaches but does not enable her.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth relied on her faith to help her tackle each day, even when depression left her feeling frail.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

During a tough period of unemployment, Elizabeth felt severe depression threatening to descend. She headed it off by drawing on coping skills such as taking decisive action, persisting, and speaking positively to herself.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth says her husband supports her without enabling her, and her relationship with him provides a comforting sense of security.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth discusses wanting to use medication only if she feels there is nothing else that can help her.

Age at interview 28

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Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth talks about how behavioral therapy has taught her to think positively

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Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth’s depression returned after a five-year gap. When she finished college and applied for jobs every rejected application made her feel like a failure.

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Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth says the relationship she had when most depressed suffered greatly because at the time she could not talk about her depression.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth worried about losing her friends if she revealed her depression.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth found that her adolescent depression caused lasting damage to her family ties.

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Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth feels drastically different than her earlier, depressed self.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth hid her dark thoughts very well, until they became overwhelming.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth talks about her experiences with anxiety as a child.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth describes how her eating disorder both seemed to help and contribute to her mental health issues.

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Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

For Elizabeth, being depressed is like being a piece of the jigsaw puzzle, which just doesn’t fit.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth describes how she rapidly lost a lot of weight.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17

Elizabeth describes wanting to protect her depression because it feels comfortable, and hiding it from professionals she saw after a suicide attempt who might force her to address it.

Age at interview 28

Gender Female

Age at diagnosis 17