I’ve had a few now [mammograms] because I’ve been on HRT for fourteen years now and because my mother died a few years back with breast cancer and I have quite a bit of cancer in our family, my GP decided that shed like me to go up to the Hospital and get checked again at some stage so that she could either continue or discontinue my HRT which I’m very happy to be on;

Do you have any concerns about that or have you always been happy with it;

I went on HRT early because in my early 40s I had to have a total hysterectomy so I was on it early. And I was taken off it short term for a while, the doctor tried but I was quite miserable and short tempered and so I asked her to put me back on and that’s why she wants me to be careful with my screening because I’ve been on it rather a long time now. But I think it’s a wonderful thing;

I’ve been on it [HRT] eight years now and I’m too scared to come off it now [laughs]. I must admit I am on the dual one as well which of course I get a bleed but the thing is I don’t want to come off it because basically I’m quite healthy and I don’t know what I’d be like off it. And because depression was one of the things I had during my menopause, very low, very weepy and I feel so, a lot better on it although I put weight on. But I am quite happy on it. I don’t know how long I can stay on it;

And I got to the stage where I was crying, you know. The children were at home then, the kids were at home and I must have been in my late forties when I started my change, under fifty. And I was getting to the stage where everything, if I dropped something I’d burst into tears and they all sat one Sunday lunch and said "whas wrong with you", you know and I just said "I don’t know".

It wasn’t so much, I do, I did get the hot flushes but it was the, I got panic attacks as well. I stopped driving, I had terrible panic attacks, I couldt drive, in fact I don’t drive still. And I got dreadful, I couldt go out the house. I got terrible panic attacks and in the end I went back to the GP and she, a few years later, I don’t know how long after, well it must be, anyway it was still that first practice and she put me on it. And I’ve never looked back since;

So, while you were having these symptoms were you able to talk to anybody or did you feel isolated or were there people you could talk to, other women or;

I don’t think I did that, you just go through it I think, you know. You just talk to yourself and try and pull yourself together but it’s very hard when you cat describe to someone why you cry and why you feel fed up and why you get these sudden horrible panic attacks where you don’t want to do anything. But I mean I don’t have anything like that now, and that’s why I’m staying on it.

He related it [cysts] to Hormone Replacement Therapy and said it is very common with that, which I didn’t know. I’ve been on it for 10 years and hadn’t really worried about it.

So when did you start the HRT? When you were about…?

When I was 45 and I’ve just come off it.

And how do you feel now?

Absolutely wonderful and half a stone lighter [laughing].

So when you went on the HRT were there symptoms that you were having, menopausal symptoms, hot flushes…?

Yes, yes, yes.

And how did the HRT help?

Well, it didn’t stop the hot flushes but I had various other funny symptoms, which it did control. Yes, it was good while I was on it and then my doctor said to me a few weeks ago, you’ve been on it 10 years, it’s time you thought about life without it. And you should be through all that by now anyway. So, I never got rid of the hot flushes while I was on it and I still get the hot flushes now but I’m so used to them, so I don’t worry about it.

I went through menopause at about 50. A few hot flushes, nothing particular to worry about. But then I read a booklet by the Amarint Trust about the benefits of HRT and asked the GP if I could go on it. Not because of the hot flushes bothering me, but just because it sounded like a good idea for your general health. That was post menopause. I’d had been, my menopause was almost passed when I went onto HRT;

And he explained that it was something that you could have if you asked for it. But the NHS couldn’t afford it for everybody. So I was expecting to have a battle with the GP about whether I was to go on it or not. But he was fine about it and just said "yes, if you think it’s a good idea, fine";

So I started on it and he tested my blood pressure every, I think it was about every three months. And gradually, it was alright to begin with, but gradually the blood pressure went up and up. So after about 18 months he suggested I came off it, so I did;

So, when you went on the HRT, were you having certain symptoms and that’s why you went to the doctor, what symptoms were they?

Oh yes, terrible flushes but I was only about 45, I think, when it started. And I was having pains in my legs, I was feeling quite tired and quite down and then I went on to HRT, which I didn’t really want to do but it really helped. And then after a year of taking HRT I decided to take a herbal remedy which is called Wild Yam Root which really helped me and I stopped taking HRT after that, yes.

I mean I’ve seen myself that the herbal extract works because I stopped taking HRT and I took this and it worked for me. And I presume there aren’t, I don’t think there are any side-effects but, hopefully, there isn’t. But whereas when you take conventional medicines there always seems to be a list of other side-effects and I don’t want those.

Do you ever advise other women who you know that are taking HRT to try the herbal one?

Yes, I do always. And in fact my other sister-law rang me the other day because she wanted to stop HRT and asked me where to buy this.

Did it work equally as well as the HRT?

Yes it did, yes it did. And in fact, I stopped HRT and the reason I started this Wild Yam was because I was putting on a lot of weight and it was all kind of a water retention weight. I mean I didn’t look overly fat but I just felt very heavy and when I stopped HRT, I hope you don’t mind me saying this, but I just did not stop going to the toilet for days and days, it was just continuous. So I had all this water retention and I never did get that with the herbal extract, so that’s one of the reasons I was looking for something else. And I did actually…

So your stomach always felt a bit bloated?

Yes, and my legs. I was, in fact I looked quite bloated most of the time.

I think it’s been helpful to me, I think it’s helpful to most women if they can blame it [breast cancer] on something. And I went on to, I went through quite an early menopause and was having problems and my doctor, I actually went to my doctor and asked if I could be put onto HRT. A friend of mine, work colleague again and friends, had been, they were on HRT and they were saying it was fantastic, they felt amazing, they weren’t getting the mood swings which I was getting, and the hot flushes, you know, and irregular periods whatever.

And I went to my doctor, my own GP, and he was very good. He talked me through the pros and the cons, and said he wasn’t too keen on me going onto HRT, and he did say that it caused, there was a risk of breast cancer. And it was just, I took on board for a while, but then I came away and the mood swings started again, and irregular periods, whatever;

And there again, my work colleagues and friends were saying, "Go onto HRT, you have a right to go on it." And "Sure, it’s fantastic, theres only a very small risk for breast cancer." So I went back to him again, and he really wasn’t too keen on prescribing the HRT. So that was twice, so a third time I thought, I don’t care what he says, I want HRT. So when I went to see him he was on holiday, and it was a locum GP and she didn’t hesitate and she put me on HRT right away;

So I was on HRT for I think just coming up to three years, yeah, just yes, just coming up to three years. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer I was told immediately to stop taking HRT. So I thought, well bearing in mind my lifestyle, and I don’t smoke and you know, I thought, it must be the HRT. So [sighs] it helped me being able to blame the breast cancer on something, so I blamed the HRT. It mightn’t have been that. My surgeon and another doctor did say that three years wouldn’t be a long enough time to cause breast cancer on HRT but who knows, you know;

And I asked a lot of questions by then and one of my main concerns wasn’t about the fact that I’d had a breast removed but whether I could go back on HRT because I felt that my quality of life was more important;

And it was agreed that she [nurse] would speak to the consultant. He came to speak with me and I felt I needed to put this point across that I would like a reason why I should not return on to the HRT. What he did say was he would have to have a meeting with other colleagues before they made a decision. And their decision was that I could return to the HRT because there was no factors to indicate it was receptive to the hormones;

When you, before you had the mastectomy, you were talking to the consultant about having a mastectomy, is this when the conversation came up about you will have to stop the HRT patches;

Yes, yes. He was very, he was very against it. And I had looked up a bit about it anyway prior to all this, and I was feeling so well on HRT and have done for many years that, I really didn’t want, I didn’t want to go back to what it would have been like without them. And I certainly wouldn’t have wanted to return to my employment having suffered menopausal symptoms. So it was something that I felt I would probably fight about, and I did;

So after the mastectomy, how soon after where you able to take the, have the patches;

I would say about a week after I returned home. And my GP was a bit unhappy about it, but there was a letter to support what I’d said, so that was fine;

Yes, so you were back on it;

I was back on them fine, yes;