Will - Interview 26
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Will is 24 and studies product design. He had first seizure at the age of 14 on a London bus. A week later he had another seizure, was taken to see a neurologist who diagnosed Idiopathic Generalised Epilepsy. After his initial diagnosis his school stopped him playing rugby and he had to give up his GCSE design technology (DT) course because it involved using machinery which could be dangerous. The school nurse organised an Epilepsy awareness day and, over the following months, as Will was well, the school relaxed their ban on the rugby and the DT course. He was first prescribed Epilim (sodium valproate) but soon the seizures returned and he was switched to Tegretol Retard (carbamazepine). Despite this, Will and his family went off to ski for a week with no problems. Will was seizure-free for two years and thought everything was sorted. Then, out of the blue, he had another seizure. This was a shock to him and Will says that for a while it was really hard for him to accept his epilepsy and the setback. He says that he “had to suck in my pride and get on with it”.
It was a big deal for Will not being able to get his driving licence at 17 with his friends, especially because he had always been very passionate about cars and had a pile of “Top Gear Subscriptions”! Will says he is “starting to treat life normally” as he has been seizure-free for such a long time now. He feels very lucky that he is so well controlled by medication and also that he is not photosensitive. He describes muscle twitches that he used to get in his neck or on his finger. These twitches are classified as seizures and Will says they were sometimes followed by a tonic clonic seizure, especially at times when tired or stressed.
Because he is seizure-free, some of Will's current friends don't know he has epilepsy. Will lives at home with his parents and sister. He says his father tends to be overprotective which he finds quite frustrating. Will says his epilepsy has made him "mature faster" and after the relapse he had two years ago he has become more 'wary'. He has a passion for design and Art and he says his epilepsy doesn't need to affect his work plans.
Will felt different from other boys in school. It was difficult for him when the teacher told...
I didn't feel assimilated, socially it was a bit difficult, because obviously everyone was sort of told, they said to me, my Housemaster said to me, 'Right well I'm gonna brief the guys, I'm gonna brief the House.' And it was kind of like, he wasn't addressing me in a bad way but, it was kind of like me standing there kind of and my Housemaster was talking to everyone, so there's fifty-odd lads, you know, of all ages, you know, thirteen year olds to eighteen year olds, just sort of saying, 'Right, you know, well this is William [his last name], you know, and this is the problem he has.' And I was sort of like stood there, he wasn't exactly telling me off but it was more or less, I just felt I would not, I do not want to be in this place right now. He actually asked me did I not want to be present at this, and this gathering, but I just said, 'Yes let's just be grown-up about this and we've got to, you know, take it on the chin and this is the way it is so' ,but it was yeah, I actually blushed it was [laughs] very difficult for me, for him to talk about me in this way in front of, let's just say forty-nine lads so
What was the response from people afterwards?
Well they were actually very interested. So obviously this photosensitive malarkey came a lot into it because, that's immediately what people associate epilepsy with is the strobe lighting sort of thing, but I wasn't one of those.
Will says he has to be really careful about remembering to take his tablets. If he forgets his...
Has that happened?
It has once, yeah, and obviously being at university having to get up early and things I'm very wary that it might happen again because of so many things, you know, I've got my books, I've got my portfolio, got this, got that, yeah, and you know, it's one of those real scares of me. It's either right do I, it's just around of me and normally in my jackets I just got this and the mobile phone and I've always got some spare pills just in case. I mean my tablet box is itemised, you know, for the week so I know what I'm taking, what haven't I taken, if I haven't taken in the morning that. Sometimes this goes back to what my father does, he always checks on me, you know, he just sort of opens this sort of wallet up and says, 'Right well he hasn't taken, he hasn't taken this morning's so I'm glad' knock on his door and say, you know, four o'clock well you better have these and then have this evening's at maybe twelve o'clock.' Something like that, yeah. it's just about keeping the balance, yeah.
Can you tell me of the incident when you forgot to take your tablets twice?
I forgot to take pretty much twenty-four hours dosage so I would have forgotten the morning or I should say the evening and the morning, whichever way. I forgot, crockery was smashed, so. It's just one of those things sometimes you forget about it, you know, we live in a 24-hour-world, there's always something on the television [laughs] worth seeing, you go out to your mates and'
Will did a degree in Product Design and is always wary when handling dangerous machinery.
Will has a licence but doesn't need a car in London because it's much easier to take the bus or...
Will describes staying in a children's ward when he was 14 as 'excruciating'. He had to watch...
I mean if anyone is my age, I mean anyone who is my age at that time should insist that they want to be put in an adult ward. Because, you know, at least you could possibly have a conversation with someone, even though they might want to talk about, I don't know, how great Winston Churchill was, or the Queen and something like that, it's better than talking to someone who says, 'Right well here's a'' Because obviously at the time Teletubbies were just the new fad, so I just said, 'Yeah it's a Teletubby.' And I remember this you have four of these little Teletubby dolls and I just thought, you know, 'that's just fantastic' [laughs].
And you were fourteen?
I was fourteen and I was just thinking, yeah, yeah, yeah, oh dear it was painful it really was. It was actually quite quiet as well, not many people in the [hospital name].
Did you go to see a specialist at that time as well who was a paediatric neurologist?
Yes yes my first was and he was in the outpatients of. It was painted, it had murals on the wall, you know, with Mickey Mouse like that and I just thought 'I'm too old for this sort of stuff I really am'. That was part of the dread of going in there 'cos you just sort of think, it was an absolute racket, it wasn't grown up it was childlike until you got in there to see him, waiting in the waiting room.