So the next day then they decided that you didn’t need a blood transfusion. Did they put on any iron medication or..?

No, they didn’t. They said that I should eat some steak and some dark chocolate which went down very well [laughs]. And that was basically it. Yes, they had no problem with it really. And we then just had to hang around to be sort of signed off and discharged and everything and the thing was it’s the whole, you know, the doctor comes round every afternoon to sign off all the babies. And we’d miss that you know, I mean [daughter] had been on the list the day before, but because we then got moved into another room, she’d missed betting signed off. So we had to wait for her to get signed off that day, and in the end we didn’t wait. Because I just was ready to go home, so we just left.

I don’t think about it too much, because if it happens then it happens. And at least at this time I might be a bit more familiar with what might be going on. I guess I’m not really sure. I guess I’m probably worried that afterwards I’ll be really conscious of like how much blood there is and I’ll be worrying about this, is this, you know, is this too much, how does this compare to last time? Sort of thing. I think I’ll be worrying about it quite a lot then. And again like not having any experience of what it should be like, you know, I don’t, you know, I won’t really be able to really to have I don’t know I think that’s the only thing I’ll probably be a bit twitchy afterwards.

Have you spoken to anyone about. I mean how do you feel about being pregnant in terms of haemorrhaging and have you said anything to anybody about that?

I haven’t really, I mean I just kind of assumed you know, that it’s just one of those things, totally random, it was a tear, you know, that could happen to anybody, so I’m not that bothered by it, and I haven’t ever thought that it would happen again. I mean it might you know, but there’s no more chance of it happening again than for anyone, so I’ve not been that worried about it. But I have to say that when I saw the midwife for the first time, for booking in for this one, she did say, Well you’ll have to have it in hospital, because there’s an increased chance that’s I’ll haemorrhage again. And I was like, Really is there? But she didn’t explain why that was. And that’s quite frustrating because just I’d like to know why? If there is why is that? You know, and just out of interest really, I guess, just to understand and I guess may be its just me I’m a bit cynical, because she couldn’t explain I kind of feel like well may be you don’t, I’d rather here that from a doctor. You know, if a doctor could say to me, you know, there’s more chance of haemorrhage of this, it’s all right. Then that would, I’d accept that and that would be okay. I kind of feel a bit like you know, maybe she’s just saying that, and that’s a bit frustrating.

So I went to have a shower and felt very uncomfortable, like I couldn’t put my clothes back on, because I was bleeding so much, that it just seemed silly to put any clothes on, because they were just going to get covered in blood.

So I felt a bit awkward.

Went back to the post natal ward. You know, I said, after a while I said to the midwife, You know, I’m bleeding quite a lot. And the trouble is you know, the post natal ward is quite busy, so she said, Okay, I’ll come and see you in a minute. I’ll come and see it. And went off and did a few other things, and eventually came back, and was like, Oh yes, you are bleeding quite a lot, sort of thing. It just seemed to be, it seemed she wasn’t particularly bothered or interested.

So I just stayed in the bed in the post natal ward for a little and, and eventually she came back with a couple of other midwives and they decided to remove me from the room. So they wheeled the bed out, and the only room that they had empty was, something like, well I think it said on the door something like you know, Emergency Recovery Room’ or something quite daunting, but actually it was obviously just a room that they stored loads of gear in, so they had all sorts of machines and things sitting there, and while we were in there, people would just keep coming in and taking things, taking equipment out the room, and they were just like people wandering in and out all the time, which was a bit weird.

Yes, so that was probably about 2 or 3 in the afternoon at that point that we went into a different room. And I think they called one of the doctors I think an SHO and they came and they said to keep the changing the bedding and to weigh it. So they were changing the sheets and the padding and everything on the bedding every fifteen minutes or so and weighing it to see how much blood loss there was.

And then you know, another doctor would come in. The registrar came in later and was saying, Oh yes, you know, it’s quite a lot of blood and everything, they just sort of carried on for a while. They kept on giving me Syntometrine because they thought that it was that my uterus hadn’t contracted, which I believe is the most common cause of haemorrhage, that’s what I’m told. That wasn’t the case with me.

So they kept giving me Syntometrine and I was on a Syntometrine drip and it obviously didn’t have any effect. And it got quite frustrating because they kept wanting to feel the uterus to see if it had contracted. Oh yes, yes, it has contracted really well, but we’ll just keep giving you more Syntometrine. And it felt a bit like, well if you can tell that’s not the problem, then maybe it should be something else. But they kept trying to treat what they thought was the most common cause.

So I was just there all the time, and they were weighing the bedding and giving me more Syntometrine, this kind of thing. And they kept putting in different cannulas all the time. I ended up with five difficult cannulas in because they just kept messing it up and obviously at this point I was really quite tired. So I wasn’t too impressed with what was happening and yes, eventually I guess a consultant came and said, Right well we’re going to take you into theatre to see what it is, because it could be a number of different things. And then she disappeared again and an anaesthetist came back to say, you know, going to give me a spinal block so that I could go into theatre and so on, and so they sort of briefed me on that and then they took me down to theatre and it was change over time on the shifts.

So they called an ambulance about half five in the morning, something like that. And then got to hospital, had an epidural, which was quite nice. And everything else was absolutely fine, then, had her naturally no problems. I think she was born at about quarter past ten in the morning and everything seemed well.

And went off to the post natal ward. Had a shower, things like that. And obviously it’s very difficult when it’s your first, to know how much you should be bleeding.

So I went to have a shower and felt very uncomfortable, like I couldn’t put my clothes back on, because I was bleeding so much, that it just seemed silly to put any clothes on, because they were just going to get covered in blood.

So I felt a bit awkward.

Went back to the post natal ward. You know, I said, after a while I said to the midwife, You know, I’m bleeding quite a lot. And the trouble is you know, the post natal ward is quite busy, so she said, Okay, I’ll come and see you in a minute. I’ll come and see it. And went off and did a few other things, and eventually came back, and was like, Oh yes, you are bleeding quite a lot. Sort of thing. It just seemed to be, it seemed she wasn’t particularly bothered or interested.

So I just stayed in the bed in the post natal ward for a little and, and eventually she came back with a couple of other midwives and they decided to remove me from the room. So they wheeled the bed out, and the only room that they had empty was, something like, well I think it said on the door something like you know, Emergency Recovery Room’ or something quite daunting, but actually it was obviously just a room that they stored loads of gear in, so they had all sorts of machines and things sitting there, and while we were in there, people would just keep coming in and taking things, taking equipment out the room, and they were just like people wandering in and out all the time, which was a bit weird.

Yes, so that was probably about 2 or 3 in the afternoon at that point that we went into a different room. And I think they called one of the doctors I think an SHO and they came and they said to keep the changing the bedding and to weigh it. So they were changing the sheets and the padding and everything on the bedding every fifteen minutes or so and weighing it to see how much blood loss there was.

And then you know, another doctor would come in. The registrar came in later and was saying, Oh yes, you know, it’s quite a lot of blood and everything, they just sort of carried on for a while. They kept on giving me Syntometrine because they thought that it was that my uterus hadn’t contracted, which I believe is the most common cause of haemorrhage, that’s what I’m told. That wasn’t the case with me.

So they kept giving me Syntometrine and I was on a Syntometrine drip and it obviously didn’t have any effect. And it got quite frustrating because they kept wanting to feel the uterus to see if it had contracted. Oh yes, yes, it has contracted really well, but we’ll just keep giving you more Syntometrine. And it felt a bit like, well if you can tell that’s not the problem, then maybe it should be something else. But they kept trying to treat what they thought was the most common cause.

So I was just there all the time, and they were weighing the bedding and giving me more Syntometrine, this kind of thing. And they kept putting in different cannulas all the time. I ended up with five difficult cannulas in because they just kept messing it up and obviously at this point I was really qui