Sometime in 1997, maybe even a bit in the year before, I had bowels symptoms, which I had had lots of times before, so I really didnt take much notice of them. But I did lose a lot of weight, and I didnt do anything about it, mainly I think because you’re frightened. And I did think I had bowel cancer. So eventually, in about late June I went to see a – hes not a bowel consultant but I went to see him because hes a friend of mine – and he said, told me that it was, a gynaecological problem.

And then I had, six months chemotherapy, Platinum, I had. I could have had the – I cant remember what it’s called, the one that comes from the yew tree – but it was a trial, and it was only hit and miss whether you got it or not, and theres a lot of very bad side effects with it, I cant remember what it’s called now.

Is it Taxol?

Yes. Taxol, that’s it. And I had had alopecia before and I really didnt want to lose my hair, I mean, you know, you get stupid things you think about. You know, does it matter whether you lose your hair or not? But I didnt want the side effects, so I said Id just have the Platinum.

I think that Taxol was fairly new then, and they offered me a chance to go into the clinical trial and, but they pick you, I know they pick you out of a hat so you’re either on it or you’re not. And and, explained all the side effects to me and I felt I couldnt cope with them at that moment. And the carbo whatever it’s called, is, had less side effects, which is what you get anyway if you werent picked out of the hat, so I said I Don’t want to go on it. They gave me time to think about it, and I said no I Don’t want it.