Intensive care: Experiences of family & friends
Adjusting to a changed life
Generally patients who stay in ICU the longest are those who are admitted as emergencies. Planned surgery patients tend to have a relatively short ICU and general ward stay, sometimes with a brief spell in a High Dependency Unit. Everyone who has been in intensive care recovers at his or her own pace. Many patients leave hospital very physically weak and complete recovery can sometimes take up to two years, particularly if they were admitted to ICU because of an emergency illness, surgical complication or accident.
Here people talk about their experiences of being full time carers because the ill person's health had deteriorated so much after critical illness that they could no longer manage alone.
Some people said they'd had to make many changes to the way they lived their lives because the ill person's health had deteriorated so much since the illness or accident that they now needed a lot of care. Several said they'd had to give up work for a few years so they could care full-time for their partners. One man said he'd accepted a redundancy offer at work so that he and his daughter, who'd given up college, could look after his wife.
A few people had to give up work permanently to become full-time carers. Some had been retired. Many described the changes they'd had to make to their everyday lives and the challenges they'd faced. A few said they'd become quite housebound or rarely had a break themselves because they needed to be near or with the ill person all the time in case he or she injured themselves or caused an accident in the home. One woman said her husband's memory had become so poor she worried that he might let in strangers or pay for things over the phone that had already been paid for or cancelled. Some had found it difficult coping with their new situation and worried about managing in the future if things didn't improve. They said they coped because they loved the ill person and this strong bond, as well as the good days they had, helped them through.
Although her husband has made lots of progress, he still can't be left on his own for very long...
I could never leave [my husband] overnight but, luckily, we have a daughter that lives locally and I've got three teenage grandchildren who, you know, are available really should he need help. He's always got on very well with his grandchildren. He loves it when they come and they've spent a lot of time here with him.
Because his wife is very weak, visually impaired and still has serious bowel problems, he looks...
Wife' I cant see enough. Thats the difference. I can't see it.
Have you had any support from anyone else?
Husband' We have had lots of people contacting us, calling in to see if they can help and that but the problem with a lot of these people are they haven't got access to various things but there is no manpower at the other end of it. It is all suggestions, you can do this, you can try that, you know, we can get you in touch with such and such ' Admiral nursing, get in touch with those, but when you get in touch with them there is not really very much they can do. You know you could do with somebody, [my wife] would need somebody with her all the time if I was to go away or something like that. She could never cope on her own. I have great difficulty in leaving her at all. And I am on tenterhooks wondering what am I going to find when I get back home. Even if I just go round to the shop and back again.
Wife' I put a pillow in the microwave once and set it on fire.
So really a carer would be good, someone who could come in on certain days'?
Husband' Well it would, but again you see it would take a long time for that carer to get to understand what [my wife] needs and'
Wife' Like fitting on the night bag. Most carers will have never seen anything like it before.
Husband' It would be very difficult for me to leave her. At the moment we are getting a quite reasonable nights sleep now. At least we can say that and we are not absolutely exhausted. I mean with this night bag as we call it, it is giving us like six or eight hours sleep a night. And as I say occasionally I get woken up with her saying it is leaking, you know, but that is a very rare occasion now.
Some people said they had little or no other support when the ill person came back from hospital and this meant they rarely got a break from caring. A few felt that the ill person's needs were extremely specific and that no one else would be able to care for them the way they did. Several felt guilty about leaving them with someone else, even though they would have liked a break.
One woman said her husband had his leg amputated and would have an artificial limb fitted when he was strong enough, so he could walk unaided. She'd given up work to care for him and sometimes found it difficult but also felt extremely grateful that he'd survived his illness and that caring for him was 'a labour of love'.
She gave up work to look after her husband full time and encourages him when he feels depressed...
Do you drive to the hospital?
I drive him down, yes. And then I usually come home and when they phone me I go and collect him.
He was very quiet when he first came home and a few times I have said to him what was the matter. And he said, 'Oh I can't do this, and I can't do that' and I said, 'No, but you are alive,' I said, 'What you have got to remember is that you nearly died, but you didn't, you are here, so you have got to say to yourself now every day is a bonus.' So we live life to the full. I gave up working and I finished work on the 19th May to look after him, which is quite a full time job [laughs] but it is a labour of love really isn't it.
One woman had become her best friend's registered carer since her critical illness. She that they were still close but their friendship had changed. It now focussed much less on going out and having fun together and much more on supporting and encouraging her.
Her best friend has needed a lot of support and their relationship has changed because she now...
Does she still consider you as her closest friend because you're the one who's always around to help?
I think so. I think so. She does have her moments where I get a phone call and say, 'We're not going shopping today' Or 'What you doing this weekend?' And I say, 'I'm going to my boyfriend's' and she goes, 'Oh'. And you can hear that, 'oh', well you know, 'I'm going to my boyfriend's but I'm just going to be sat in his house all weekend'. When, it's like sometimes I wonder whether she actually resents the fact that she's how she is now and I'm still going on with my life.
People laugh when you, when I say, 'Oh well I'm, you know, my mate's carer.' And they see us stood next to you and she's got, you know, a nice pair of court shoes on, smart trousers, nice top, hair's done, make-up's done. They look at you stupid. You know, well do you know if she looks better than I do most of the time [laughs] when we go out. Why am I her carer? I don't think people always understand what goes on inside or what complications she's been left with or what problems she's got. You know even stupid things like walking around the supermarket, somebody can walk in front of her, somebody can stand too close to her. I turn around and she's heading for the door and the trolley's been abandoned [laughs].
Some people said that they'd sometimes felt burdened or resentful about having to care for the ill person, especially when it had involved making lots of sacrifices in their own life. A few people said they received support with caring, which they'd found helpful.
She and her husband support each other when caring for their son feels difficult.
We do resent it and we do, you know, you have your low moments. And we kind of allow ourselves to have a really good moan and we say, 'It's not bloody fair' and, you know, 'Why us?' And you know, sometimes I'll be a bit down and [my husband] will be fine and he'll sort of say, 'Now, come along' you know. Or he'll let me have a really good grouse and then I'll get over it. Or vice versa. He can be a bit sort of grumpy for a day or something...
Yes, so we tend to sort of, we do work as a team.
Many people said they'd had to adjust to a very different way of living because the ill person's health had deteriorated so much since the illness or accident and this had often been difficult or stressful. Now they were the full time carer of their relative some said they were anxious because, if anything ever happened to them, there would be no one to care for the ill person.
She'd had cancer before and worried about who would look after her husband if she ever became ill...
Some people who were caring for their spouse were concerned that their relationship would change but the role of husband and wife had been resumed. A few said that their roles and relationships had changed and were now more difficult. Several said that they'd taken on more responsibilities, not only in terms of supporting the ill person and doing more within the home but also in terms of looking after the finances because the ill person's memory had been so badly affected.
Although she's never been interested in financial matters, she is now having to take care of...
I find that things like that, having to handle things like that it's quite difficult. And seeing him not having any interest in it, something that you know he would have been getting cross about and [laughs] arguing with advisors about it because, in many ways, he knew as much about, because he read an awful lot about, you know investments and all the rest of it that he would of. He knew as much as most advisors for it but I mean the fact is I sorted of handed that over to somebody else because I would not know where to start, you know, transferring pension funds and all the rest of it. But luckily it's all nearly completed now. So that's good.
At first he was worried that he'd become his wife's carer rather than her husband but that didn't...
So I have been the main carer and obviously other people have come in and provided additional help. We have got a lady who comes and does a bit of laundry and things just to ease that burden and a young lad who does work in the garden and helps with bits and pieces. And the OT has been very good and has arranged for various adaptations to the property to make it feasible. So yes, on the one hand don't feel that you can't ask for help. On the other hand don't get pressurised into feeling that you have to accept help that you don't really want. But you know, each situation is different. So you have to learn how to do it yourself.
Yes. And what were your main concerns when your wife first came home?
Husband' Well I suppose you are moving into a totally different situation really. The difficulty is that if you take on the caring role, some how you lose the husband role, and that was an anxiety. But I don't think it has proved to be a problem. Though from time to time it is something that we talk about. And I suppose it is the practical things about how you cope with doing those practical sort of personal tasks. But again you fall into a routine and it seems the natural thing to do now.
One woman said that her husband's memory had become very poor and she often felt sadness for the time they could have had together if he hadn't got ill.
Her husband is now very forgetful and she has to explain things to him and sometimes feels sad...
How about for you?
Things that you feel you've lost, time together that?
Yes, yes, we have lost the sort of times, that I need to, I have to explain an awful lot of things. You can't just make a statement. Now like the other day we were looking around. I was just buying some milk actually and I went and said something about organic milk. Well I mean I don't know how you feel about organic goods but I don't buy organic [laughs]. And you know and I said, 'Oh that's organic. I don't want that. I don't want to pay extra for that'. Anyhow 'Well now,' he said, 'Organic', he said, 'They've just added something to it'. And I was trying to explain to him what this' 'Everything is organic', he said. 'After all if it grows, it's got to be organic'. And I was trying to explain to him that to use the term organic it's got to comply with quite strict regulations. You know I said it's got to be no artificial, no pesticides, nothing like that. And he just, his idea of it, well organic he just said they add something. Actually you know, they don't and I was explaining to him whereas before he would have known exactly what it all. He said everything is organic these days and they go on and on about organic things. But he didn't really realise what organic is and why it really is more expensive because obviously you don't produce as much [laughs]. If you're not getting rid of the weeds and that and the pests it does cost more to produce. And you know, just little things like that and you'd have to sit and explain so much.
Last reviewed August 2018.