And then we had, we started IUI and we had – they said we will do six. Because they did a few tests and everything seemed fine. So they said, “Let’s do six IUI’s and see how we go. If they don’t work then let’s think then about IVF. And on the sixth IUI there was some evidence of being some implantation. It was a very low HCG level and that then made me feel more confident that things weren’t blocked, that thing’s weren’t, you know, that it could happen. So they said, “Well let’s do another six.”
I mean at every stage they gave me lots of choice. It wasn’t, but six, another six sounds good and we did another four. So we’d done ten in all. And I think I just became dispirited. I thought that’s enough. Let’s do IVF. Because it’s really expensive you know, if you do ten, you start getting to thinking well we could have done a couple of IVFs. So we said let’s do the IVF. And they were really supportive about that. There was no sense that they were… I never felt they were pushing me one way or another. But if I said to them, “What would you do if you were me?” They would often, they would say. But at the end of the day it’s our choice.
And the IUI’s you did them in six months. Did you do them in six months on the trot or …?
They wouldn’t let you. They made you have a month off in between. I always suspected that was for mental reasons rather than physical reasons I think, but I would have been much happier just doing that. And, a couple of times they gave me Clomiphene, a couple of times I grew some little cysts and they made me have another month off which is awful. I hated, I hated the months off. They drove me more mad than the months of doing it. I would have been really happy to do… and it’s my understanding as well if you did six in a year you raised your chance of I don’t know, ovarian cancer, some, some, it was some health risk, but at the time I was just thinking I want to get pregnant. And I want to get pregnant now. That was my main…
So I used to pester them into letting me not have months off and I think when I grew the cysts, I said, “Well let’s do it without the Clomiphene then.” So I think a couple of those six were done without the stimulating drugs.
Were they happy to do that?
Yes, I mean they said, “It’s less likely to happen.” And I said, “Well not less likely then not trying.” Because I mean in a lesbian relationship you’re not going to accidentally get pregnant in the month off. So, you know, and I felt that I was getting older, and also I’m impatient anyway. And wanted to get on with it.
So yes, they were pretty good at advising but then going along with what, but most of the time I think it coincided with what they thought.