John - Interview 08b
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John was pleased to be diagnosed but was left with the same underlying problems in his life.
John has damaged the property he rents.
John hoards electrical goods and books. He was surprised to find out that hoarding was linked to...
I continue to apply for white collar jobs. I mean I think, obviously the fact that you’ve not been working recently and the fact that the most recent job is one from which you didn’t pass the probation period. That’s not something counts in favour of you as an applicant. So, but, that provides a difficulty. And also a tendency to obsessiveness means that sometimes you get bogged down in sorting out other areas of your life and you know, there are times for months on end when I haven’t looked for work. I mean I’ve been through something of a development in my housing situation, where my flat was being refurbished and I’d been moved out to a temporary so called decamp flat, and that has taken me about a year to go through all that process, which other people would have done much more swiftly, I’m sure.
And what about the hoarding why do you think it’s curious that your psychiatrist does include hoarding under the umbrella of…
Well, well because I mean the reason I think it’s curious, if I read you know, literature aimed at the sufferer, I mean, it predominately talks about the social functioning etc. And I would see hoarding as more connected with OCD and I don’t have diagnosis of OCD. I have a diagnosis of quote obsessional symptoms. But my psychiatrist says that, you know, if there were any attention deficit problems which he doesn’t accept and the obsessional symptoms which he does accept. He lumps all, both of those areas under the Asperger's…
I was very much taken by surprise and I wasn’t aware that Asperger's was considered to, you know, contain these other components. I mean I do understand now that it contains components to do with irritability and frustration, but no I was very much taken by surprise when he first said that the, any obsessional symptoms are part of, under the umbrella of Asperger's. Yes, that took me by surprise.
And what do you hoard?
Well okay, books for one thing, sometimes items of electrical equipment, computer equipment. But books is a major thing. I would say there, they are the major things yes.
John has concentration problems that have been eased with antidepressants but he would like...
John finds his difficulties socialising are magnified when he is with women.
John's landlord can cope with the impact his irritability has had on his home.
John was on the verge of a diagnosis of schizophrenia as a teenager.
John's dislike of social interaction and his obsessional focus have led to difficulties in the...
John thinks that raising awareness of autism among employers would help.
Well that’s quite a broad question. I mean I’m not an expert in job design or anything of that kind. I think, I think one of the main things that would help would be for somebody to explain the condition properly to an employer, so that, you know, when, when you as an individual are behaving in a certain way that you’re driven to behave in, that, that, somehow that’s explained to them, that it’s, you know, it’s just a facet of the condition and isn’t anything more serious. And, that, that’s one of the main things. And I suppose the other thing is you know, as I suffer with Asperger's I find I’m quite good at absorbing written instructions but, but when pragmatically local managers are trying to juggle competing demands and they want to not necessarily abide strictly by written instructions but to just get the productivity up, that, that you know, to, to explain that to me, rather than me sitting away thinking well I’m doing fine because I’m following the written instructions. I think those, those kind of interpretive pieces of assistance would also be useful.
John's problems with attention have not received the support he would have liked.
John is content to be on his own but that is 'unacceptable by wider society'.
Well you know, there is this tendency to, or contentedness if you like, you know, you to be happy on your own, you know, without, without a great deal of social inter… social interaction. And you know, while you as an individual may not have a great deal of problem with that, that is something that, somehow is seen to be unacceptable by wide society. You know, it’s something that other people find….I mean I think, I mean just to give the example of working, you know, in an office situation. That somehow to be sociable with your colleagues is kind of expected and with modern management techniques in offices like so called team working, it almost undermines your ability to be considered to be working as part of a team if you’re not also socialising with people in the pub on a Friday lunchtime. That kind of thing and I’ve found it very difficult to sustain in jobs where this, this element of whether or not you’re socialising with people seems to come into it. That’s just one example.