I have been unlucky with my LD flap I think because I was in quite a lot of pain and I don’t think people believed me actually. I know that sounds awful but that’s how I felt, people didn’t believe me. I went to a physio for two, privately I went to some physio for two sessions several times because I just felt everything was pulling across the front. So I had the operation in February, and this is two years ago now, and people, you know, if you ring up anybody or talk to your GP, I think four to six months they expect a few aches and pains, all right, get on, you know, no problems. But this was going on October, November and I was still, and in fact it was the physio that said to me in the end, she said, “Well, I can’t stop that. You know, I can’t, when all this exercise, it’s something that’s in…” And that, I did get myself in a state because I was in quite a lot of discomfort and I used to wake up every morning feeling exhausted. And I was getting emotionally all wound up as well.
So when I went back for my yearly check, I was pretty desperate actually. I was feeling but, and this is where, I don’t know if I want to say all this really but it was, I got very upset because I felt I had to be very assertive in there and say, you know, apparently lots of women have sort of various party tricks my surgeon called them. And I was just so angry, it was not a party trick. I was, you know…But anyway, he did offer me, offer to cut the tendon. So that was a year, well no, the tendon was cut last June so that was, but it took me a few months to get round to deciding I had to do it, I was getting so, I really was getting very down actually. I was because I couldn’t see a way out. I felt this was, and in the meantime my dad died and I had three or four months that was pretty, you know, going back and forward. It was just, OK, it’s all right. But, you know, looking back, it was a tough time.
So when I was ready I went back and I said please could, I’d like the tendon cut. But I am, you know, I was a state. I don’t reckon, so by this time I really almost got to a stage where I had a phobia about going back. But it was a different experience going in on a weekday, I have to say. The staff, you know, you don’t feel that there were people that were talking to you while you were waiting. The whole experience was different. And I also knew, of course, it wasn’t such a major operation. I knew that. I was so, so hoping it would make things better. So, you know, that’s what happened.
And I did go in and I was, I could feel relief immediately he did it because I had, used to get this great tightness right across my chest. I couldn’t breathe sometimes, especially at night. So it was a great relief and I did thank him very much and, you know, he’ll quote that he went in and said you know I felt like a new woman. I did. But unfortunately, as far as I’m concerned, I still have a lot of movement across my chest. I still have, and to be fair to my surgeon, he did say probably a few months in to when I first went in there that you know, if this movement was still there the nerve would have to be cut.
So I don’t know whether cutting the tendon was supposed to sort it all out or whether that was just part of the procedure but, you know, when I went back sort of four or five months after the operation that was cutting the tendon, I just felt that I was still wasn’t happy, I couldn’t, still feel it moves. I can feel it now all the time. There are certain things I do that it really gets aggravated.
Have you been back to mention this?
Yeah, yeah, I’ve been to see my surgeon but in the meantime by GP sai